I Gained What i lost

I’ve lost the god they've placed upon me,
He is not with me now,
I don’t know if he ever was.
To have such truths, fiction, and words from a bible,
I must spend time in someone else’s world,
Not mine,

There is an encroaching calm,
A growing sense of self,
Happiness made of an endorphic furnace
There is no waiting for another life to begin
It’s here now.

The Elements of Cognition

Why did I take so long to learn to listen?

Why did I wait so long to ask questions?

Who should I listen to now that there is no one left to ask, then learn?

Who will listen to me?

Why should they?

Will they?

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